Oh Betsy you know how much I feel this. Thank you for sharing - and my lord we are so in alignment right now, I literally spoke about my mother in therapy last week. How the things that frustrate me about her are the things Iām starting to see make me angry in myself š love you lots xxx
Love you too lady... and love that we are indeed so in sync these days. As for our mothers, oh boy, that's a much longer conversation for another day ;) What's that quote I love / hate... 'when I open my mouth my mother comes out'. Learning to embrace those bits of me is hell of a hard :) x
Oh, you make me happy and comforted and feel seen no understood. I feel this deeply āSaying anything is making noise, and I just want the world to feel quiet.ā I just relent and think whatās the point and go quiet because someone has to (hello doubt), but it doesnāt help either because my creative roots, a heart to share and a human desire to be seen and witnessed flow through me. The core roots of me will always be there. See, your tiny seeds and ānot enoughnessā brought words to a feeling. Thank you.
Aaaah Sasha! How I love the fact that we get to forever dance in these wildflower meadows together my love āŗļøš±āØ Thank youā¦ always, for seeing me, and reflecting back what grows in you. Giant love ā¤ļø
Your writing might be noise but it's the noise of a soft rain which makes everything shiny and reflective and brings out the richness of colors that go unnoticed otherwise.
Oh Kaitlin... I think I might need to copy out that reflection and tape it to my wall! Wow, what a truly gorgeous way to 'see' my words... that has moved me, deeply x
At home in spaces of growth. Learning how to love ourselves. May it be so. Thank you, Betsy, for sharing the seeds of your beginnings in this space. Where you bring the fruits of all the lives youāve already lived. So elegantly. And tenderly. And gently. And beautifully. X
Giant big breaths of gratefulness for you Iona, always! (And I havenāt dared listen to your message yet, as I confess I often put off the emotional connection / feelings until I feel brave enough to let them soak in. Iāve a feeling you might know what I mean?). Such love, always ā¤ļøāØ
I know EXACTLY what you mean š„¹. Giant big breaths. For all the giant big feels. For those of us who feel all those feels so intensely. Just soak when youāre ready. No rush. X
So many nutrients nourishing my growth in this post, Betsy. I loved the way you organised your thoughts. It was easy on my eyes and digestible for my busy brain. The metaphors were stimulating as well. I love how they help ideas grow like vines in my mind as I read. āThe wisdom of our roots planted firmly within the soil of our own unique never-ending universe.ā What a lovely thing to contemplateā¦.reaching deep down to ground ourselves in an expansive āheavenā. What a lovely way to re enter and counter some of those worries that are like weeds choking our peace of mind and sucking up our energy.
Oh sweets, it took me a while to come back to this as when I read it yesterday it made me so happy, in that eye tingling sort of way. Canāt tell you how happy I am to have connected with you in these windows my loveā¦ I love that you speak my language āØā¤ļøšš±
Hello Betsy, how lovely to see you writing on here. And your writing is wonderful. I would have thought youād had always written, such is the quality of your words.
I was at an art/craft fair recently selling my prints and there was the most beautiful jewellery stall. As I was looking at her work the jeweller noticed the solstice ring I was wearing and asked to see it. She said it was absolutely beautiful, and I told her how much I loved it. She had been making jewellery for a long time, and could see the beauty in what you created!
Maybe we get the feeling of ānot enough-ness ā from our mothers as mine is 73 and still puts herself down all the time. Xx
Oh Cally! So much to say to you hereā¦ thank you my love, it makes me feel cosy to hear those reflections on my words, and my makingsā¦ but even cosier to know that you still wear the ring! Iāve stopped making for the moment, as my shed is now my sons and my tools have moved onā¦ but to know that I planted a few sparkles out in the world when I did still makes me smile.
Iāve also been meaning to thank you so much for your wisdom you shared on hormones, as 4 months in and although Iām not without my tics and tremors, my sparkle is absolutely returningā¦ and that was always the darkest part for me in this whole adventure. So thank you!
I donāt think Iāll ever stop being amazed by the nourishment in these connections and conversations we have in these little digital homes we create. āØā¤ļø
From someone who holds you on something of a pedestal in terms of your multitude of capabilities I am utterly moved by your feelings of not-enoughness. (Even leaking from the eyes) You write beautifully. Stammer or no stammer, you speak beautifully and your drawings and capacity for support are beyond wow. You truly are enough as is any of us with the right connectedness. Thank you for being the incredibly unique voice here~ everything here is original, unique even when itās been said before. Especially when you share your vulnerable soul. ā¤ļø
Compare leads to despair. And is the thief of joy. (Roosevelt I think said that before me š¤)
Awww, well likewise with the pedestal sweets, so maybe itās about time we both just lay them down and sit on the floor together hey šš¤£š
And I still feel super lucky we get to hang out in work and in playtime like this tooā¦ like kids in the playground mucking about in the mud hey! ššā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
I think Iām coming to feel that sharing writing in a place like this always is about sharing what nobody else has saidā because youāre expressing your own particular feelings as a particular human, and if similar feelings have been expressed before then this doesnāt really matter? I donāt know if thereās any need to be the first one to communicate your own experience. Itās maybe more important to be heard and seen
Iāve been thinking about that sort of thing with reference to AIā I think itās completely possible that something that isnāt human will become better able to give an account of being human than any of us, although this is not a very popular view.
But if thatās true I think it becomes even more important to say that communication as one being to another has to be at the heart of what weāre doing, rather than whether weāre doing it especially originally or well. Otherwise we might all just be doomed to being very lonely
Robertā¦ this comment has reminded me of my (maybe our) why. This ācommunication as one being to another has to be at the heart of what weāre doingā is exactly itā¦
Thank you so much for reflecting that back towards me here. And I do think youāre onto something about how AI will do it ābetterā, which is why I guess, clinging onto this practice of still showing up through our fears not-enoughness is so important. To feel the shaking voices beneath the words hey.
Oh Betsy you know how much I feel this. Thank you for sharing - and my lord we are so in alignment right now, I literally spoke about my mother in therapy last week. How the things that frustrate me about her are the things Iām starting to see make me angry in myself š love you lots xxx
Love you too lady... and love that we are indeed so in sync these days. As for our mothers, oh boy, that's a much longer conversation for another day ;) What's that quote I love / hate... 'when I open my mouth my mother comes out'. Learning to embrace those bits of me is hell of a hard :) x
Definitely going to have a conversation with you about this š š
We are so overdue a zoom date one of these days my love!!!
Youāre on š
Oh, you make me happy and comforted and feel seen no understood. I feel this deeply āSaying anything is making noise, and I just want the world to feel quiet.ā I just relent and think whatās the point and go quiet because someone has to (hello doubt), but it doesnāt help either because my creative roots, a heart to share and a human desire to be seen and witnessed flow through me. The core roots of me will always be there. See, your tiny seeds and ānot enoughnessā brought words to a feeling. Thank you.
Aaaah Sasha! How I love the fact that we get to forever dance in these wildflower meadows together my love āŗļøš±āØ Thank youā¦ always, for seeing me, and reflecting back what grows in you. Giant love ā¤ļø
Poetry. Always poetry ā¤ļø Love you, friend! Iāll find your words and doodles wherever they roam
Your writing might be noise but it's the noise of a soft rain which makes everything shiny and reflective and brings out the richness of colors that go unnoticed otherwise.
Oh Kaitlin... I think I might need to copy out that reflection and tape it to my wall! Wow, what a truly gorgeous way to 'see' my words... that has moved me, deeply x
I forgot to use the words thank you, but I hope you felt them anyway! :) x
I really appreciate this graphic
Aaah, thanks so much for letting me know that Beniamin, Iām glad it spoke to you. šāØš±
At home in spaces of growth. Learning how to love ourselves. May it be so. Thank you, Betsy, for sharing the seeds of your beginnings in this space. Where you bring the fruits of all the lives youāve already lived. So elegantly. And tenderly. And gently. And beautifully. X
Giant big breaths of gratefulness for you Iona, always! (And I havenāt dared listen to your message yet, as I confess I often put off the emotional connection / feelings until I feel brave enough to let them soak in. Iāve a feeling you might know what I mean?). Such love, always ā¤ļøāØ
I know EXACTLY what you mean š„¹. Giant big breaths. For all the giant big feels. For those of us who feel all those feels so intensely. Just soak when youāre ready. No rush. X
So many nutrients nourishing my growth in this post, Betsy. I loved the way you organised your thoughts. It was easy on my eyes and digestible for my busy brain. The metaphors were stimulating as well. I love how they help ideas grow like vines in my mind as I read. āThe wisdom of our roots planted firmly within the soil of our own unique never-ending universe.ā What a lovely thing to contemplateā¦.reaching deep down to ground ourselves in an expansive āheavenā. What a lovely way to re enter and counter some of those worries that are like weeds choking our peace of mind and sucking up our energy.
Oh sweets, it took me a while to come back to this as when I read it yesterday it made me so happy, in that eye tingling sort of way. Canāt tell you how happy I am to have connected with you in these windows my loveā¦ I love that you speak my language āØā¤ļøšš±
Hello Betsy, how lovely to see you writing on here. And your writing is wonderful. I would have thought youād had always written, such is the quality of your words.
I was at an art/craft fair recently selling my prints and there was the most beautiful jewellery stall. As I was looking at her work the jeweller noticed the solstice ring I was wearing and asked to see it. She said it was absolutely beautiful, and I told her how much I loved it. She had been making jewellery for a long time, and could see the beauty in what you created!
Maybe we get the feeling of ānot enough-ness ā from our mothers as mine is 73 and still puts herself down all the time. Xx
Oh Cally! So much to say to you hereā¦ thank you my love, it makes me feel cosy to hear those reflections on my words, and my makingsā¦ but even cosier to know that you still wear the ring! Iāve stopped making for the moment, as my shed is now my sons and my tools have moved onā¦ but to know that I planted a few sparkles out in the world when I did still makes me smile.
Iāve also been meaning to thank you so much for your wisdom you shared on hormones, as 4 months in and although Iām not without my tics and tremors, my sparkle is absolutely returningā¦ and that was always the darkest part for me in this whole adventure. So thank you!
I donāt think Iāll ever stop being amazed by the nourishment in these connections and conversations we have in these little digital homes we create. āØā¤ļø
This is so beautiful ā¤ļø
Aaah, thank you my loveā¦ and itās so sweet to see you here! šā¤ļøāØ
From someone who holds you on something of a pedestal in terms of your multitude of capabilities I am utterly moved by your feelings of not-enoughness. (Even leaking from the eyes) You write beautifully. Stammer or no stammer, you speak beautifully and your drawings and capacity for support are beyond wow. You truly are enough as is any of us with the right connectedness. Thank you for being the incredibly unique voice here~ everything here is original, unique even when itās been said before. Especially when you share your vulnerable soul. ā¤ļø
Compare leads to despair. And is the thief of joy. (Roosevelt I think said that before me š¤)
Awww, well likewise with the pedestal sweets, so maybe itās about time we both just lay them down and sit on the floor together hey šš¤£š
And I still feel super lucky we get to hang out in work and in playtime like this tooā¦ like kids in the playground mucking about in the mud hey! ššā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
Absolutely love that you have shared this and written- so beautifully about it. It is crazy that we feel it and it seems we all do. ā¤ļø
Aw, thank you Tamsinā¦ and youāre so rightā¦ it is crazy, and a weed I wish wasnāt so tough to dig out hey! ā¤ļøāØ
Oh, Betsy, Iām so sorry you feel that way š
I think Iām coming to feel that sharing writing in a place like this always is about sharing what nobody else has saidā because youāre expressing your own particular feelings as a particular human, and if similar feelings have been expressed before then this doesnāt really matter? I donāt know if thereās any need to be the first one to communicate your own experience. Itās maybe more important to be heard and seen
Iāve been thinking about that sort of thing with reference to AIā I think itās completely possible that something that isnāt human will become better able to give an account of being human than any of us, although this is not a very popular view.
But if thatās true I think it becomes even more important to say that communication as one being to another has to be at the heart of what weāre doing, rather than whether weāre doing it especially originally or well. Otherwise we might all just be doomed to being very lonely
Robertā¦ this comment has reminded me of my (maybe our) why. This ācommunication as one being to another has to be at the heart of what weāre doingā is exactly itā¦
Thank you so much for reflecting that back towards me here. And I do think youāre onto something about how AI will do it ābetterā, which is why I guess, clinging onto this practice of still showing up through our fears not-enoughness is so important. To feel the shaking voices beneath the words hey.
Giant love.
Oh good! Iām glad I can remind you of that āŗļø