Oh Betsy you know how much I feel this. Thank you for sharing - and my lord we are so in alignment right now, I literally spoke about my mother in therapy last week. How the things that frustrate me about her are the things I’m starting to see make me angry in myself 🙈 love you lots xxx
Love you too lady... and love that we are indeed so in sync these days. As for our mothers, oh boy, that's a much longer conversation for another day ;) What's that quote I love / hate... 'when I open my mouth my mother comes out'. Learning to embrace those bits of me is hell of a hard :) x
Oh, you make me happy and comforted and feel seen no understood. I feel this deeply “Saying anything is making noise, and I just want the world to feel quiet.” I just relent and think what’s the point and go quiet because someone has to (hello doubt), but it doesn’t help either because my creative roots, a heart to share and a human desire to be seen and witnessed flow through me. The core roots of me will always be there. See, your tiny seeds and “not enoughness” brought words to a feeling. Thank you.
Aaaah Sasha! How I love the fact that we get to forever dance in these wildflower meadows together my love ☺️🌱✨ Thank you… always, for seeing me, and reflecting back what grows in you. Giant love ❤️
Your writing might be noise but it's the noise of a soft rain which makes everything shiny and reflective and brings out the richness of colors that go unnoticed otherwise.
Oh Kaitlin... I think I might need to copy out that reflection and tape it to my wall! Wow, what a truly gorgeous way to 'see' my words... that has moved me, deeply x
At home in spaces of growth. Learning how to love ourselves. May it be so. Thank you, Betsy, for sharing the seeds of your beginnings in this space. Where you bring the fruits of all the lives you’ve already lived. So elegantly. And tenderly. And gently. And beautifully. X
Giant big breaths of gratefulness for you Iona, always! (And I haven’t dared listen to your message yet, as I confess I often put off the emotional connection / feelings until I feel brave enough to let them soak in. I’ve a feeling you might know what I mean?). Such love, always ❤️✨
I know EXACTLY what you mean 🥹. Giant big breaths. For all the giant big feels. For those of us who feel all those feels so intensely. Just soak when you’re ready. No rush. X
So many nutrients nourishing my growth in this post, Betsy. I loved the way you organised your thoughts. It was easy on my eyes and digestible for my busy brain. The metaphors were stimulating as well. I love how they help ideas grow like vines in my mind as I read. “The wisdom of our roots planted firmly within the soil of our own unique never-ending universe.” What a lovely thing to contemplate….reaching deep down to ground ourselves in an expansive “heaven”. What a lovely way to re enter and counter some of those worries that are like weeds choking our peace of mind and sucking up our energy.
Oh sweets, it took me a while to come back to this as when I read it yesterday it made me so happy, in that eye tingling sort of way. Can’t tell you how happy I am to have connected with you in these windows my love… I love that you speak my language ✨❤️🙏🌱
Hello Betsy, how lovely to see you writing on here. And your writing is wonderful. I would have thought you’d had always written, such is the quality of your words.
I was at an art/craft fair recently selling my prints and there was the most beautiful jewellery stall. As I was looking at her work the jeweller noticed the solstice ring I was wearing and asked to see it. She said it was absolutely beautiful, and I told her how much I loved it. She had been making jewellery for a long time, and could see the beauty in what you created!
Maybe we get the feeling of ‘not enough-ness ’ from our mothers as mine is 73 and still puts herself down all the time. Xx
Oh Cally! So much to say to you here… thank you my love, it makes me feel cosy to hear those reflections on my words, and my makings… but even cosier to know that you still wear the ring! I’ve stopped making for the moment, as my shed is now my sons and my tools have moved on… but to know that I planted a few sparkles out in the world when I did still makes me smile.
I’ve also been meaning to thank you so much for your wisdom you shared on hormones, as 4 months in and although I’m not without my tics and tremors, my sparkle is absolutely returning… and that was always the darkest part for me in this whole adventure. So thank you!
I don’t think I’ll ever stop being amazed by the nourishment in these connections and conversations we have in these little digital homes we create. ✨❤️
From someone who holds you on something of a pedestal in terms of your multitude of capabilities I am utterly moved by your feelings of not-enoughness. (Even leaking from the eyes) You write beautifully. Stammer or no stammer, you speak beautifully and your drawings and capacity for support are beyond wow. You truly are enough as is any of us with the right connectedness. Thank you for being the incredibly unique voice here~ everything here is original, unique even when it’s been said before. Especially when you share your vulnerable soul. ❤️
Compare leads to despair. And is the thief of joy. (Roosevelt I think said that before me 🤔)
Awww, well likewise with the pedestal sweets, so maybe it’s about time we both just lay them down and sit on the floor together hey 😂🤣😂
And I still feel super lucky we get to hang out in work and in playtime like this too… like kids in the playground mucking about in the mud hey! 🙌😂❤️❤️❤️
I think I’m coming to feel that sharing writing in a place like this always is about sharing what nobody else has said— because you’re expressing your own particular feelings as a particular human, and if similar feelings have been expressed before then this doesn’t really matter? I don’t know if there’s any need to be the first one to communicate your own experience. It’s maybe more important to be heard and seen
I’ve been thinking about that sort of thing with reference to AI— I think it’s completely possible that something that isn’t human will become better able to give an account of being human than any of us, although this is not a very popular view.
But if that’s true I think it becomes even more important to say that communication as one being to another has to be at the heart of what we’re doing, rather than whether we’re doing it especially originally or well. Otherwise we might all just be doomed to being very lonely
Robert… this comment has reminded me of my (maybe our) why. This “communication as one being to another has to be at the heart of what we’re doing” is exactly it…
Thank you so much for reflecting that back towards me here. And I do think you’re onto something about how AI will do it ‘better’, which is why I guess, clinging onto this practice of still showing up through our fears not-enoughness is so important. To feel the shaking voices beneath the words hey.
Oh Betsy you know how much I feel this. Thank you for sharing - and my lord we are so in alignment right now, I literally spoke about my mother in therapy last week. How the things that frustrate me about her are the things I’m starting to see make me angry in myself 🙈 love you lots xxx
Love you too lady... and love that we are indeed so in sync these days. As for our mothers, oh boy, that's a much longer conversation for another day ;) What's that quote I love / hate... 'when I open my mouth my mother comes out'. Learning to embrace those bits of me is hell of a hard :) x
Definitely going to have a conversation with you about this 😅😘
We are so overdue a zoom date one of these days my love!!!
You’re on 😍
Oh, you make me happy and comforted and feel seen no understood. I feel this deeply “Saying anything is making noise, and I just want the world to feel quiet.” I just relent and think what’s the point and go quiet because someone has to (hello doubt), but it doesn’t help either because my creative roots, a heart to share and a human desire to be seen and witnessed flow through me. The core roots of me will always be there. See, your tiny seeds and “not enoughness” brought words to a feeling. Thank you.
Aaaah Sasha! How I love the fact that we get to forever dance in these wildflower meadows together my love ☺️🌱✨ Thank you… always, for seeing me, and reflecting back what grows in you. Giant love ❤️
Poetry. Always poetry ❤️ Love you, friend! I’ll find your words and doodles wherever they roam
Your writing might be noise but it's the noise of a soft rain which makes everything shiny and reflective and brings out the richness of colors that go unnoticed otherwise.
Oh Kaitlin... I think I might need to copy out that reflection and tape it to my wall! Wow, what a truly gorgeous way to 'see' my words... that has moved me, deeply x
I forgot to use the words thank you, but I hope you felt them anyway! :) x
I really appreciate this graphic
Aaah, thanks so much for letting me know that Beniamin, I’m glad it spoke to you. 🙏✨🌱
At home in spaces of growth. Learning how to love ourselves. May it be so. Thank you, Betsy, for sharing the seeds of your beginnings in this space. Where you bring the fruits of all the lives you’ve already lived. So elegantly. And tenderly. And gently. And beautifully. X
Giant big breaths of gratefulness for you Iona, always! (And I haven’t dared listen to your message yet, as I confess I often put off the emotional connection / feelings until I feel brave enough to let them soak in. I’ve a feeling you might know what I mean?). Such love, always ❤️✨
I know EXACTLY what you mean 🥹. Giant big breaths. For all the giant big feels. For those of us who feel all those feels so intensely. Just soak when you’re ready. No rush. X
So many nutrients nourishing my growth in this post, Betsy. I loved the way you organised your thoughts. It was easy on my eyes and digestible for my busy brain. The metaphors were stimulating as well. I love how they help ideas grow like vines in my mind as I read. “The wisdom of our roots planted firmly within the soil of our own unique never-ending universe.” What a lovely thing to contemplate….reaching deep down to ground ourselves in an expansive “heaven”. What a lovely way to re enter and counter some of those worries that are like weeds choking our peace of mind and sucking up our energy.
Oh sweets, it took me a while to come back to this as when I read it yesterday it made me so happy, in that eye tingling sort of way. Can’t tell you how happy I am to have connected with you in these windows my love… I love that you speak my language ✨❤️🙏🌱
Hello Betsy, how lovely to see you writing on here. And your writing is wonderful. I would have thought you’d had always written, such is the quality of your words.
I was at an art/craft fair recently selling my prints and there was the most beautiful jewellery stall. As I was looking at her work the jeweller noticed the solstice ring I was wearing and asked to see it. She said it was absolutely beautiful, and I told her how much I loved it. She had been making jewellery for a long time, and could see the beauty in what you created!
Maybe we get the feeling of ‘not enough-ness ’ from our mothers as mine is 73 and still puts herself down all the time. Xx
Oh Cally! So much to say to you here… thank you my love, it makes me feel cosy to hear those reflections on my words, and my makings… but even cosier to know that you still wear the ring! I’ve stopped making for the moment, as my shed is now my sons and my tools have moved on… but to know that I planted a few sparkles out in the world when I did still makes me smile.
I’ve also been meaning to thank you so much for your wisdom you shared on hormones, as 4 months in and although I’m not without my tics and tremors, my sparkle is absolutely returning… and that was always the darkest part for me in this whole adventure. So thank you!
I don’t think I’ll ever stop being amazed by the nourishment in these connections and conversations we have in these little digital homes we create. ✨❤️
This is so beautiful ❤️
Aaah, thank you my love… and it’s so sweet to see you here! 🙏❤️✨
From someone who holds you on something of a pedestal in terms of your multitude of capabilities I am utterly moved by your feelings of not-enoughness. (Even leaking from the eyes) You write beautifully. Stammer or no stammer, you speak beautifully and your drawings and capacity for support are beyond wow. You truly are enough as is any of us with the right connectedness. Thank you for being the incredibly unique voice here~ everything here is original, unique even when it’s been said before. Especially when you share your vulnerable soul. ❤️
Compare leads to despair. And is the thief of joy. (Roosevelt I think said that before me 🤔)
Awww, well likewise with the pedestal sweets, so maybe it’s about time we both just lay them down and sit on the floor together hey 😂🤣😂
And I still feel super lucky we get to hang out in work and in playtime like this too… like kids in the playground mucking about in the mud hey! 🙌😂❤️❤️❤️
Absolutely love that you have shared this and written- so beautifully about it. It is crazy that we feel it and it seems we all do. ❤️
Aw, thank you Tamsin… and you’re so right… it is crazy, and a weed I wish wasn’t so tough to dig out hey! ❤️✨
Oh, Betsy, I’m so sorry you feel that way 😞
I think I’m coming to feel that sharing writing in a place like this always is about sharing what nobody else has said— because you’re expressing your own particular feelings as a particular human, and if similar feelings have been expressed before then this doesn’t really matter? I don’t know if there’s any need to be the first one to communicate your own experience. It’s maybe more important to be heard and seen
I’ve been thinking about that sort of thing with reference to AI— I think it’s completely possible that something that isn’t human will become better able to give an account of being human than any of us, although this is not a very popular view.
But if that’s true I think it becomes even more important to say that communication as one being to another has to be at the heart of what we’re doing, rather than whether we’re doing it especially originally or well. Otherwise we might all just be doomed to being very lonely
Robert… this comment has reminded me of my (maybe our) why. This “communication as one being to another has to be at the heart of what we’re doing” is exactly it…
Thank you so much for reflecting that back towards me here. And I do think you’re onto something about how AI will do it ‘better’, which is why I guess, clinging onto this practice of still showing up through our fears not-enoughness is so important. To feel the shaking voices beneath the words hey.
Giant love.
Oh good! I’m glad I can remind you of that ☺️